Life, Purpose & Prayer

I have had a rough last few weeks. It always seems when I put out the most energy to be nearer to God, Satan tries to come between us. Why is that?

It all started on Christmas Eve when we found out of monthly income had been slashed $900.00 per month. Our mortgage went up, my Long Term Disability company decided to reduce my payout and our wonderful health insurance went up. And, I have incredibly high blood pressure, we're talking Stroke limits.

Looking back through all of that, I had committed to be a Mentor to The Bible in 90 Days through Mom's Tool Box. I had chosen a word for this year to learn to believe in more and I am reading a book called One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. Wow, does the invite Satin or what?

I know my purpose here on earth is to be the best mother I can be to the FOUR blessing that God has loaned me. They are all his, and I have been given the wonderful chance to love them, educate them and to teach them from right and wrong. I feel though lately, that I am letting those things go in order to make things work monetarily. We have missed Church the last few Sunday's and made very few Wednesday night services. I am actually afraid to go. I keep wondering what would happen next. Do I feel guilty and convicted on this, ABSOLUTELY!

Why does Satan try to rob the joy and pleasure from us? What do I have to do to kick him out of my life? I pray until I can't pray anymore sometimes. I crave the learning of Jesus and want my children to crave Jesus too, not fear Him.

I am just asking for extra big prayers in the next few weeks. We need to have a lot happen in order not to sink in this and give in to Satan.

My word of the year is; FAITH. I'm putting it to the test.

Blessings to you,
Kimberly